now&forever,mylove

you're my sunflower~

When we are together, doing things that we love
Everytime you're near, I feel like I'm in heaven
I don't want to let go
I don't want to run away
Baby, you're the one I need tonight
Baby, now I need to hold you tight
I just want to die in your arms
No Promises

Thursday, November 05, 2009!

written: Thursday, November 05, 2009

Happy 11th~

They will never understand until they know how I feel.

They won't understand until they know what we have.

What we feel for each other.

And what we have for each other.

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I had fun with Faruq today. We went to Seoul Garden, which was decided spontaneously! Yes, we spent 55bucks on variety of food. Worth it, I must say.

I burnt my hand and it hurts, although it was just abit. But it hurts okay! Hehh.

Nothing beats the fun that we had.

I love that smile of his.

Happy 11th, my dear Sunflower~

I love you. =))

written: Thursday, November 05, 2009

What can I say~

The truth hurts. But lies is worse.

I'm accepting the truth and to know that this is all lies, I have nothing to say.

Really, I don't need you to do anything. And well, I don't think you know me as you think that you do.

You know I forgive. But I don't forget.

Maybe, it is time for you to realise why this is all happening.

Just don't say that there's no such things as, 'not needing each other'. You never know that you might be wrong. You never know.

I've nothing else to say.

And yes, you're forgiven.

Go out with them if you miss them. =)

Tuesday, November 03, 2009!

written: Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Weird~

Exactly 12am. Wow. That's so cool. Hahah. So, it makes the date to be, 4th of November 2009.

I'm tired and sleepy, honestly. But I'm waiting for Mohd Faruq to finish up his workload. I'm just worried that he won't get enough sleep and there goes his migraines and being sick. Tsk!

Anyway, I've been doing alot of thinking. Especially, when it comes to friendship.

Where did it all go? Really, it makes me wonder. What happened?

I just find it disappointing that we are all drifting apart. Yes, I must say that part of it is my fault but I don't think I'm all to be blamed.

Everything happened for a reason. And, it makes me think. Best friends? Are we still all that? Or we are just living in denial? Or it's because, we are all moving on and not hanging on to the past?

After all that happened. Outings, where either one of us aren't informed about and same excuses were given. Honestly, I'm tired of all this. I don't think any of us are willing to hang on to things that should belong in the past.

Does it hurt to see and to know that things like this happened, once again?

Yes, it hurts so much. Tears. I'm not even sure if things like this are worth crying for. I'm not sure.

Friends. The group of people that I used to say that I can't live without. And then, you make me think twice.

I just hope that you guys are happy. That's all.

And so, there goes a part of my thoughts. It hurts, I guess. It does.

Anyway, what makes you become the person that you dislike? I don't know. Hehh. I just feel that I'm similar to her, in some ways. In some way or another, we may like the same thing or act the same way and I feel irritated. But then again, I can't do anything about it.

I am who I am.

Maybe, it's just the surface that makes us similar but deep down inside, I guess not. I guess, that is what that makes everyone different. =))

I believe therefore I am! (Bowen's Motto! HAHA!)

I guess, I've been thinking about a lot of things that I don't realised. Suddenly, I felt so suffocating and pressured by everything. That makes me feel all tired and sad. I don't even know what I want or what I'm feeling.

I feel lost.

And, I hate this feeling. I feel like crying but there's no point. I shall endure everything.

I should go now. Maybe, sleeping helps.

Just maybe.
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I shall look forward to one more day.

Here comes the 11th!

Are you happy that we made this far, dear?

Monday, November 02, 2009!

written: Monday, November 02, 2009

This is it~

- for you.

Saturday, October 31, 2009!

written: Saturday, October 31, 2009

Just you and I~

Okay, it's really boring to stay at home with nothing to do. Seriously, I think that I should atleast know what I want to accomplish on that day. Hmm. Maybe I should. Hehh.

And guess what? It's not nice to have your kitten's long tail whacking your face! Haha. Yes, I'm stunned. Hahaha.

Faruq, you better don't laugh~

Anyway, I took a 2 hour nap which I'm happy with. Finally, I get to rest at home and get my energy back for the upcoming weeks. Especially, for tomorrow!

I'm off to ECP with Faruq and cycle around ECP! Yayyy! I can't wait for tomorrow!

And guess what? Kak Noor found another Lori Foster's book in the library! Weeee! I love her books! I shall read it as soon as possible! Haha.

Honestly, I have NO idea what to blog about. Hmm. Let's see.

Oh oh! 5th is on Thursday! Heheh!

Then, it will be DECEMBER~~~~~~ =))

Plus, I must not forget to study for UT! Pfttt.
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See you tomorrow, Mohd Faruuuuqqqqq~

written: Saturday, October 31, 2009

Halloweeennn~

Back from the Halloween party.

Okay, I must say that the Halloween party was disappointing. Honestly, it wasn't organized properly and the turn ups for the party was like less than 150 people. The crowd wasn't that enthusiastic about the whole thing.

Simply, no extravagant stuffs. Oh wells.

I went to the party with Azuin, Kat, Rozz and Bali. We, girls, spent far too much time in the toilet, getting ready and all sexy. Well, good job to Rozz for the sexy make-up and Azuin's hair. I love it. Hehh.

Anyway, I couldn't stand the party and I felt like leaving the place.

My dear Superman came and rescued me. Hehe. Faruq came with his group of friends who were nice enough to entertain me and make me smile, even if it was for awhile. Met Izzat and Eda together and as usual, I have the temptations to disturb Eda. Hehe.

I decided to leave the place but I want to see the night trail first. In the end, the queue was just ridiculous and I left the place with Faruq. And, I felt so much better after leaving that place. Phewww.

Oh yes, beside that, it's kind of disappointing and upsetting that you crush someone's hope and then, expect them to say its okay. I'm kind of pissed and yet disappointed. Really. What's the use of having a technology that is in your hands?

Seriously, thanks.

Whatever.

Anyway, I must thank Mohd Faruq for rescuing me. I really don't know what will I do if you weren't there! Thank you for cheering me up and I need it so much.

Thank you, dear~ =))

And, my eyes are closing. I need lots of rest!

Goodnight, people!
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Almost a year,
I'm still in love.

No,
I'm falling deeper than before.

I love you, Mohd Faruq~

Saturday, October 24, 2009!

written: Saturday, October 24, 2009

So what now~

Thoughts bothering me. I hate that feeling. I can't even stop thinking about it. Flashback, here and there. Stupid. Really stupid.

It's really pissing me off. Explanations that are just based on lies. You must be kidding me.

Seriously, wipe that stupid look on your face.

Damn it. I really hate feeling like this!

*breathes in. breathes out*

Let's forget the bitchy and stupid thoughts.

Anyway, congratulations to my dear Kak Sue! Yayy! Finally, she got engaged and I hope she's happy. Haha. She did lots of things, just for the engagement and I hope it was all worth for her. =))

Congratulations, Sue~! =))

And of course, I must thank all those who came. My dearest BFF and band friends. Suf, Shilla, Fakhrin, WanXuan, Nadia and Zakiah.

Thank you, babies~!

I have to thank Heiqal and Lala for being there too! It was nice to have some new good company, in the house. I'm thankful that you guys came. =))

Lastly, thank you, Mohamed Faruq for coming! Thank you so much! You look so handsome in that black shirt of yours. That perfume? Ahhh. Good one! =))

In short, thank you ALL for coming! =))

And so, here I am. All alone in the room. I feel so suffocated. I feel so disturbed and I have no idea why I'm feeling like this.

Just don't even think of doing anything. You won't like it if you do so.

I shall help out then. Something to distract me from feeling like this.

Anyway, I have a costume designing contest tomorrow at Causeway Point! Do support Saffy and I! Especially, Saffy! My dear MODEL!

Hmm. Come on, let's go!

*ps, one of my kitten is missing!
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Have a good rest, dear.

And, thank you for coming!

Handsome~!

And, you're playing that song for me. =))

Monday, October 19, 2009!

written: Monday, October 19, 2009

When I meet the cute people~

A cute sight, I must say.

I love it alot. =))

Saturday, October 17, 2009!

written: Saturday, October 17, 2009

To wait~

I'm still waiting. I don't know why I'm waiting but I am.

It's frustrating but there's nothing that I can do but to ignore.

Okay, ignore.

Oh wells, must be my PMS. More reason why I should ignore it.

I'm working tomorrow.

Goodnight then.

I miss you. =)