now&forever,mylove

you're my sunflower~

When we are together, doing things that we love
Everytime you're near, I feel like I'm in heaven
I don't want to let go
I don't want to run away
Baby, you're the one I need tonight
Baby, now I need to hold you tight
I just want to die in your arms
No Promises

Wednesday, November 18, 2009!

written: Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Kiss you in the rain~

Kissing in the rain.

I wish you were here on a day like this. =)

Tuesday, November 17, 2009!

written: Tuesday, November 17, 2009

That was the day~

So again, it goes like this.

A friend went missing and I was worried.

I couldn't get hold of anyone who was in class.

Asked a friend for help.

And there, I got the number.

There I was, thinking to myself.

Was my purpose to find a friend or just to have it for myself?

And so, I asked him whether she was around.

So, on that day itself, after school.

I was in the class, wondering to myself about other stuffs.

*beep beep* goes my phone.

Wondering who it was.

Expect the unexpected, I must say.

It was him.

And, it goes like this.

"Hey nana darling. ......... You must be smiling to yourself, reading this."

Trust me, that got me smiling widely like an idiot.

I marked that day,

A miracle.

That was how everything started.

And here I am, with you.

A year after that.

Sunday, November 15, 2009!

written: Sunday, November 15, 2009

All four seasons~

I'll love you for all four seasons.

Thursday, November 12, 2009!

written: Thursday, November 12, 2009

My future~

What will it be like in the future?

Whatever it will be like, there's only one thing that I want. =))

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I don't want to lose you.

Not in any way.

Keep holding on.

Keeping holding me tight.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009!

written: Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Sunshine~

My lovely morning sms to you. Haha.

Few more weeks to a year. =)

Few more weeks, my W47F class chalet.

Few more weeks to Faruq's birthday.

Few more weeks to MY birthday.

And yet, I have'nt decide what I want.

Booo~

Thursday, November 05, 2009!

written: Thursday, November 05, 2009

Happy 11th~

They will never understand until they know how I feel.

They won't understand until they know what we have.

What we feel for each other.

And what we have for each other.

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I had fun with Faruq today. We went to Seoul Garden, which was decided spontaneously! Yes, we spent 55bucks on variety of food. Worth it, I must say.

I burnt my hand and it hurts, although it was just abit. But it hurts okay! Hehh.

Nothing beats the fun that we had.

I love that smile of his.

Happy 11th, my dear Sunflower~

I love you. =))

written: Thursday, November 05, 2009

What can I say~

The truth hurts. But lies is worse.

I'm accepting the truth and to know that this is all lies, I have nothing to say.

Really, I don't need you to do anything. And well, I don't think you know me as you think that you do.

You know I forgive. But I don't forget.

Maybe, it is time for you to realise why this is all happening.

Just don't say that there's no such things as, 'not needing each other'. You never know that you might be wrong. You never know.

I've nothing else to say.

And yes, you're forgiven.

Go out with them if you miss them. =)

Tuesday, November 03, 2009!

written: Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Weird~

Exactly 12am. Wow. That's so cool. Hahah. So, it makes the date to be, 4th of November 2009.

I'm tired and sleepy, honestly. But I'm waiting for Mohd Faruq to finish up his workload. I'm just worried that he won't get enough sleep and there goes his migraines and being sick. Tsk!

Anyway, I've been doing alot of thinking. Especially, when it comes to friendship.

Where did it all go? Really, it makes me wonder. What happened?

I just find it disappointing that we are all drifting apart. Yes, I must say that part of it is my fault but I don't think I'm all to be blamed.

Everything happened for a reason. And, it makes me think. Best friends? Are we still all that? Or we are just living in denial? Or it's because, we are all moving on and not hanging on to the past?

After all that happened. Outings, where either one of us aren't informed about and same excuses were given. Honestly, I'm tired of all this. I don't think any of us are willing to hang on to things that should belong in the past.

Does it hurt to see and to know that things like this happened, once again?

Yes, it hurts so much. Tears. I'm not even sure if things like this are worth crying for. I'm not sure.

Friends. The group of people that I used to say that I can't live without. And then, you make me think twice.

I just hope that you guys are happy. That's all.

And so, there goes a part of my thoughts. It hurts, I guess. It does.

Anyway, what makes you become the person that you dislike? I don't know. Hehh. I just feel that I'm similar to her, in some ways. In some way or another, we may like the same thing or act the same way and I feel irritated. But then again, I can't do anything about it.

I am who I am.

Maybe, it's just the surface that makes us similar but deep down inside, I guess not. I guess, that is what that makes everyone different. =))

I believe therefore I am! (Bowen's Motto! HAHA!)

I guess, I've been thinking about a lot of things that I don't realised. Suddenly, I felt so suffocating and pressured by everything. That makes me feel all tired and sad. I don't even know what I want or what I'm feeling.

I feel lost.

And, I hate this feeling. I feel like crying but there's no point. I shall endure everything.

I should go now. Maybe, sleeping helps.

Just maybe.
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I shall look forward to one more day.

Here comes the 11th!

Are you happy that we made this far, dear?